Addicted

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They are always there. Always calling to me, at school, at parties, and even with my closest friends.

“Come on babe,” they’ll say, “just grab that pair of scissors from your backpack, go to the bathroom, and we can play around for a little while.” I try to remain focused on whatever the task is at hand, but they continue to seduce me.

“You know you want to,” they’ll say. I tell them to wait until tonight to ease them, and as the stern voice weakens to murmurs, I can still hear them.

I continue through my day, soothing the cries with the phrase “just wait until tonight.” My long sleeve itches my arm, but I must hide all evidence of the presence of these monsters.
At the end of the day, after spending time with family, and as everyone begins to settle down for a long deserved rest, the voices begin to unease. “You promised us. Don’t forget that, or you’ll be sorry.”

My parents tuck me in, wishing me a good nights rest, and as they slowly shut my door, those voices rejoice with delight. I, myself, fill with a bit of joy as I climb out of the covers, crouch down, and pull the small box out from under my bed. They go silent, waiting in anticipation.

I climb back in bed and set down the box. I pull off the lid to be greeted by the same sight as the night before. The dim light from my lamps glimmers off the blade inside. I pull it out, set it beside me, and roll up my sleeves, staring at the carnage. They begin to unease, and whisper all sorts of things. “You are so worthless.” “You deserve this.” “No one cares, just do it!”

These cascading cries continue as I reach for the blade. So small and beautiful, I slowly pick it up between my thumb and middle finger. The cries begin to contort into whimpers as I press the sharp edge against my wrist. I begin to go to work, carving line after line. As the blood begins to run down my arm, they sigh with a sense of relief. I do this for a while, until my arm is full of red lines of all lengths and sizes.

I set the blade down, as they say “you did good.” A tear rolls down my cheek, as I once again realize how addicted I really am.

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  • Commented on December 21, 2015 at 6:23 pm

    It’s about a suicidal kid

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  • Reitou
    Commented on December 22, 2015 at 6:40 am

    This shouldn’t be on this site. It honestly made me cry, because this is real and something people actually go through. This should not be on a site of made up horror stories. It could potentially stop someone from getting help for this because it’s on a site like this. I’m a bit disappointed this got onto the site.

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  • Commented on December 22, 2015 at 3:58 pm

    I agree self harm is addicting and although this story probably doesn’t belong on a creepypasta website I hope that you get better believe me it helps if you tell someone. I promise someone cares

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  • Commented on December 22, 2015 at 10:51 pm

    I don’t find this funny or a joke at all and it shouldn’t be a creepypasta as real people everyday go through this. Self harm is real. It has no bounds it Hurts and it is addictive. And as a former self harmer who got help thenkfully I don’t find this amusing at all I still bare the scars and I’m still taking it one day at a time not to self harm again.

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  • xarwhospissedatthesecomments
    Commented on December 26, 2015 at 11:33 pm

    who cares its a cool storie god shut up and whine on reddit or some shit

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  • pooperoni
    Commented on December 29, 2015 at 9:38 am

    Yeah, I’m in the property market. Mainly houses and residences but..I sell farm too

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  • CreepyPastaz
    Commented on December 30, 2015 at 9:45 pm

    Nicely written, but sad to know that there are people out there experiencing this sort of thing.

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  • thunder thighs
    Commented on December 31, 2015 at 1:05 am

    This story was well written, 10/10. Also I didn’t see this as a story about a suicidal child, but more as a mentally ill child who is persuaded by the voices in his head to cut his wrists. the reason I believe him to be mentally ill is because last time I checked, it is not normal for people or kids to hear voices in there head (especially the type described in this story).

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  • Commented on December 31, 2015 at 1:17 am

    Do not tell us to go whine reddit because this is serious and no its not a cool story its about self harm . Im not joking I am a kid and think this is wrong.

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  • Maureen
    Commented on January 2, 2016 at 4:01 pm

    I love this. All you butthurt people can shut up, because this is real and honestly, a better description of what it feels like than anything else I’ve found.

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  • JANETHEKILLER
    Commented on January 4, 2016 at 5:02 am

    this is sad i have a friend who self harms and its not a joke.

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  • Andrei
    Commented on January 4, 2016 at 10:20 am

    Whether this is belongs here or not is debatable, but honestly I was expecting more. It was so easy to read that by the end I was hoping for some kind of twist, rather than self harm. My mind was going to topics like “maybe that’s some kind of demon in disguise and it actually takes of its skin” or something. If you want to approach the self harm make it a little less predictable, say it in metaphors, like when the person cuts some kind of small demons come out, as a metaphor for releasing the tension or something. It way too predictable and you can see the ending from a mile, so much that you hope for a twist that never comes.

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  • Commented on January 4, 2016 at 10:57 pm

    This story is just sad and depressing, and truly not a creepypasta, but it’s so true for some people, but I*m not sure if it should be at creepypasta.org since it’s a place for creepypastas

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  • Commented on January 8, 2016 at 1:36 am

    The story is well made and very reflective of those who do self-harm. However tread lightly when it comes to this kind of theme. People can be sensitive about this even if it is just a story. A few grammar errors and try having less commas next time. Also possibly be in more depth about certain details within the story to have more understanding and relation.

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  • Commented on January 25, 2016 at 4:40 am

    I’m hoping OP didn’t make this as an insight to their life. If so, I hope they get help. I could never really fathom the precise reasoning to self harm. I’ve known several friends who did it and it breaks my heart to see people I care about want to hurt themselves.

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  • Sydney
    Commented on February 6, 2016 at 9:16 pm

    Why shouldn’t this be on this site, even if it does really happen to people? Yes it’s sad and horrific but this is a place for fictional stories. You’re also completely overlooking that more then 50% of the other stories on here include self harm, brutal beating and rape of many different kinds. If this is the kind of thing that would keep you from getting better, which if the writer is depressed I very much hope they do get better, then I highly suggest you should not be reading stories of the nature.

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  • Commented on February 26, 2016 at 8:14 am

    This pasta shows people (mostly teenagers) have certain addictions you know nothing about..
    Well done.

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  • Commented on February 29, 2016 at 1:23 am

    I have a feeling the narrator is schizophrenic.

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  • Commented on March 12, 2016 at 8:30 pm

    There is a lot of debate as to this story not belonging on this site. I did not find this entertaining but I did appreciate the insight it provided. “Cutting” is a very real behavior. I appreciated the opportunity to experience it from the point of view of one afflicted . It also seemed like a cry for help.

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  • Licorice Whip
    Commented on March 13, 2016 at 1:01 am

    FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK! I’M 11 FUCKING YEARS OLD AND I USED TO HARM MYSELF THE SAME WAY BUT WITH MY FINGERNAILS! (this is still a good pasta)

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  • darius
    Commented on March 20, 2016 at 3:21 am

    You guys are seriously complaining because this shit happens in real life and it is going to hurt someone? I used to cut, too. The majority of this generation has done some form of self harm–it happens. Many people have been haunted by the stuff on here in real life and you guys still view it as entertaining and fun. To those of us who have experienced a real haunting, it is anything BUT fun. But reading the stories is still a form of entertainment. Don’t be so quick to critique something because you’ve gone through it while enjoying another form of torment on another human.

    The story was nicely written, so leave it at that. Whether you support the topic or not. Don’t be such babies–because that’s exactly what you are if you’re seriously judging them for writing about this form of self harm while telling someone who writes about butchering people with a smile on their face that their story is perfect.

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  • Commented on March 23, 2016 at 3:32 pm

    This should be removed , that’s all I’m saying.

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  • Commented on March 27, 2016 at 6:19 am

    Most accurate thing I’ve read to be honest

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  • Commented on March 27, 2016 at 11:02 am

    This pasta definitely should NOT be on this site. The whole purpose of creepypasta is to be creepy or paranormal, of which this is neither. I can see how some people can be torn between wondering at the validity of it being here because of”the voices”, but this is an accurate presentation of someone who may be going through symptoms of selfharming. Its a visual representation of someone’s deepseated issues with body or mental dysmorphia. It 100% should not be here, unfortunately with creepypasta.org’s review guidelines, I can see how it made it. Somehow stories that aren’t creepy or paranormal still make the guideline. Wether or not it should be here is already decided it seems. That being said, the quality is good ie grammar, spelling, punctuation, format, despite the poor content. Therefore I have to say good job at writing this op, but please do a better job on the topic of your next one.

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  • Commented on April 25, 2016 at 12:44 pm

    This is a very sensitive subject. If you like to blay with fire be my guest but this is entirely to controversial subject. Although self mutilation is an entirely stupid thing to do and i hate people who do it. this person has schizophrenia so I don’t know how i feel about this particular case but i absolutely hate the ungrateful ones that do it because they’re depressed. (being alternative myself)

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  • Commented on April 25, 2016 at 1:08 pm

    I am a person who has dealt with depression and other things like this. What people do not understand, is that a lot of it is for attention. People take this too seriously and that people are suicidal, but the truth is, is that people who do that WANT the stares. They want the drama, they want everything thrown at them until they drown. This was a cute petite pasta in my opinion that does not fill the dish for the touchy subject it deals with.

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  • Slendy
    Commented on April 26, 2016 at 3:33 pm

    I completely disagree with the majority of the comments here. It’s CREEPYPASTA website. People get killed, tortured, lit on fire, haunted, and tons of other things. It is not supposed to be taken as a ‘joke’ or ‘funny’. Not a single story here is supposed to be taken jokingly. Yes, people self harm in real life, as well as get killed, and abused. I have self harmed before, almost everyone has. It just isn’t a big deal compared to other things on this website. If you were looking for a joke, or something happy or light hearted, you have come to wrong place. Go read Cupcakes, come back re-read this story, and tell me again how it should not be on this website.

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  • Victoriakoegler
    Commented on May 22, 2016 at 4:25 pm

    This story is legitimately sad and depressing. To the person who wrote this, I applaud you for your good writing skills. Also, I think you are very brave to post a pasta this emotional and serious on the site, because honestly, this stuff does happen in real life. That’s what makes it so scary. Though I don’t necessarily think the story should be taken off of the pasta list, I do hope you continue writing. I really do admire your work, and that’s a fact. 🙂

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  • Commented on May 23, 2016 at 9:46 pm

    I thought this was good, fuck everybody that doesn’t like it. There are always going to be assholes that take shit personally, it’s annoying. This pasta gives you perspective on this sort of thing and it’s sad that people go through this. The horror of this story is that it’s real and it happens every day. Creepy pasta worthy to me, I mean my god I read one the other day on here about a meth addict but there wasn’t any whiny ass bullshit comments posted on there. Five stars, bitches.

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  • Commented on June 6, 2016 at 6:25 pm

    relatable

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  • Commented on August 28, 2016 at 2:23 am

    I don’t understand why people are calling this a joke, I went through this for years. Yes, it’s a sad story. But it’s just that, a story. Not a joke. Quit taking everything so personally. Writer, you have a great talent. Keep it up.

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  • Commented on October 5, 2016 at 3:58 pm

    Worst story ever…. My girlfriend does that its no laughing matter

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  • Commented on October 18, 2016 at 4:10 pm

    So, I don’t want to come off as “rude” or “offensive but let’s get this straight. This isn’t a creepypasta. This isn’t even a scary story. This is self-harm. And the narrator is probably suffering from bullying and harassment and therefore is tempted to hurt himself or herself. Self-harm is definitely not a creepypasta…

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  • Commented on November 14, 2016 at 3:19 am

    This pasta is amazing. It’s one that people can really relate to. I used to self harm and that was a perfect explanation of what it’s like. This site is for scary stories and these things happen, it is scary. I’m sorry to those who didn’t like it. Please keep the comments positive. Have a magically delicious day!

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  • Commented on November 22, 2016 at 4:02 pm

    i like this pasta its a great description of what goes through the mind when you do self harm and i think it would help if someone was addicted to harming them self and it would sort of help them to go in a different direction all together due to the fact that my brother used to cut all the time then i showed him a story like this and he stopped soon after with out any help besides the help he had at home and a computer.

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  • Commented on February 7, 2017 at 2:27 am

    thats the exact reason its a good creepypasta. because its real and its more then a little creepy to people who have never done it. even if you have then its good because then other people will know what its actually like.

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  • Commented on March 3, 2017 at 8:00 pm

    the writer was trigger happy. they probably wrote this or posted it just to trigger you all.

    still not the place not the time.

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  • Commented on April 21, 2017 at 5:51 pm

    This story should be on this site because it happens in real life and that makes it creepy.

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  • Commented on April 22, 2017 at 1:49 am

    I think the narrator of the story has schizophrenia.

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  • Commented on May 4, 2017 at 7:12 am

    A cool self-harm story with a bit of those whisper things,which really scared me.Good job. 🙂

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  • Commented on May 7, 2017 at 7:39 pm

    Really? I just think it sucked

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  • Commented on July 6, 2017 at 4:24 pm

    Clearly you are doing it wrong… TRY HARDER. YOU CONSTANT FAILURE! You make us sick…

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  • Commented on July 9, 2017 at 5:20 pm

    I know i’m late to the party but I believe a story like this deserves a comment regardless of the age. This story is amazingly well written and explores a scary thought for a lot of people because of how sensitive the subject is. This is one of my favourite pieces of literature and I applaud the author for not retaliating against the overhaul of hate and staying strong. Fantastic job.

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  • Commented on July 12, 2017 at 6:25 am

    Im not going to judge anyone for this i mean i used to cut aswell waiting until everyone was asleep so they couldnt hear my cries but this shouldnt be on creepypasta creepypasta is for paranormal and creepy this however is just…

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  • Commented on July 14, 2017 at 1:51 pm

    to be honest its a bit predictable. Plus its not really creepypasta

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  • Commented on July 14, 2017 at 7:31 pm

    All I’m gonna say, is wow. just WOW. five stars! x

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  • Commented on August 5, 2017 at 3:59 pm

    It sounds to me like the writer has some real life experience with this issue. Maybe this was someplace she felt comfortable sharing her story and everyone criticizing it and saying it shouldn’t be on here may make her feel like no one wants to listen. If this is in fact based on real events I hope the writer knows that some of us out here do care and give her tons of credit for opening up.

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  • Commented on August 18, 2017 at 12:59 am

    I have been into self mutilation since I was 13. This includes cutting, branding, extreme piercing, burns, among other things…I personally related to this creepypasta, like an old friend who understands perfectly what I’ve been through. Anyone who has an issue with this pasta obviously has no personal experience(other than through friends!) But it’s also only a creepypasta, so give the author a break! (For those still struggling with this issue, there are fantastic groups out there who know exactly what your going through and are more than willing to help. Trust me, I know. I damn near cut my whole left hand off one night. Thankfully, I got help in time. So can you.)

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  • Commented on October 14, 2017 at 2:46 am

    I do understand the point of this story and while I think it was beautifully written and reflects how self harm is truly an addictive thing I do not believe it is “Creepy”. That is not an insult of any kind, it is really well done. I also may read it on my YouTube channel if you want to watch out for it. You could change a few words here and there and make some sentences shorter. But overall it’s really beautiful. 8.5/10 for the writing itself but as a Creepypasta 3/10. Good luck hon

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  • Commented on October 16, 2017 at 6:12 pm

    writing was good.
    but this wasn’t a creepy pasta — i think thats the only reason it doesnt belong .. it doesnt really fit what the stories are supposed to be about it

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  • Commented on November 4, 2017 at 5:48 pm

    I get that this happens in real life but that’s not an excuse this story is average but what is this persons motivation, what are these voices, dose this person have some mental disorder etc, etc.

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  • Commented on November 7, 2017 at 3:40 pm

    im a cutter and its true a little upsetting but still i like the pasta it taste good like the souls of my fairy friends

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  • Commented on November 17, 2017 at 9:56 pm

    nice story.

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  • Commented on November 18, 2017 at 2:22 pm

    Weird/Cool story

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  • Commented on December 10, 2017 at 5:15 pm

    I hear voices, is that normal? I’ve managed not to listen to most. A few are good, however, and I enjoy conversing with them. They’re surprisingly positive and help me not be lonely when I’m alone, which is often.

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  • Commented on December 11, 2017 at 7:46 am

    Dear Author, this is a very good story. There’s spatial error at the end of the fourth sentence but other than that, nothing bad. More imagery and description would be swell. I hope you continue writing and wish you good luck.

    For anyone who thinks this story shouldn’t be on this website, I cannot agree. Different people find different subjects creepy. That is all.

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