Addicted

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They are always there. Always calling to me, at school, at parties, and even with my closest friends.

“Come on babe,” they’ll say, “just grab that pair of scissors from your backpack, go to the bathroom, and we can play around for a little while.” I try to remain focused on whatever the task is at hand, but they continue to seduce me.

“You know you want to,” they’ll say. I tell them to wait until tonight to ease them, and as the stern voice weakens to murmurs, I can still hear them.

I continue through my day, soothing the cries with the phrase “just wait until tonight.” My long sleeve itches my arm, but I must hide all evidence of the presence of these monsters.
At the end of the day, after spending time with family, and as everyone begins to settle down for a long deserved rest, the voices begin to unease. “You promised us. Don’t forget that, or you’ll be sorry.”

My parents tuck me in, wishing me a good nights rest, and as they slowly shut my door, those voices rejoice with delight. I, myself, fill with a bit of joy as I climb out of the covers, crouch down, and pull the small box out from under my bed. They go silent, waiting in anticipation.

I climb back in bed and set down the box. I pull off the lid to be greeted by the same sight as the night before. The dim light from my lamps glimmers off the blade inside. I pull it out, set it beside me, and roll up my sleeves, staring at the carnage. They begin to unease, and whisper all sorts of things. “You are so worthless.” “You deserve this.” “No one cares, just do it!”

These cascading cries continue as I reach for the blade. So small and beautiful, I slowly pick it up between my thumb and middle finger. The cries begin to contort into whimpers as I press the sharp edge against my wrist. I begin to go to work, carving line after line. As the blood begins to run down my arm, they sigh with a sense of relief. I do this for a while, until my arm is full of red lines of all lengths and sizes.

I set the blade down, as they say “you did good.” A tear rolls down my cheek, as I once again realize how addicted I really am.

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  • Commented on December 22, 2015 at 10:51 pm

    I don’t find this funny or a joke at all and it shouldn’t be a creepypasta as real people everyday go through this. Self harm is real. It has no bounds it Hurts and it is addictive. And as a former self harmer who got help thenkfully I don’t find this amusing at all I still bare the scars and I’m still taking it one day at a time not to self harm again.

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  • darius
    Commented on March 20, 2016 at 3:21 am

    You guys are seriously complaining because this shit happens in real life and it is going to hurt someone? I used to cut, too. The majority of this generation has done some form of self harm–it happens. Many people have been haunted by the stuff on here in real life and you guys still view it as entertaining and fun. To those of us who have experienced a real haunting, it is anything BUT fun. But reading the stories is still a form of entertainment. Don’t be so quick to critique something because you’ve gone through it while enjoying another form of torment on another human.

    The story was nicely written, so leave it at that. Whether you support the topic or not. Don’t be such babies–because that’s exactly what you are if you’re seriously judging them for writing about this form of self harm while telling someone who writes about butchering people with a smile on their face that their story is perfect.

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  • Maureen
    Commented on January 2, 2016 at 4:01 pm

    I love this. All you butthurt people can shut up, because this is real and honestly, a better description of what it feels like than anything else I’ve found.

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  • Reitou
    Commented on December 22, 2015 at 6:40 am

    This shouldn’t be on this site. It honestly made me cry, because this is real and something people actually go through. This should not be on a site of made up horror stories. It could potentially stop someone from getting help for this because it’s on a site like this. I’m a bit disappointed this got onto the site.

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  • Commented on January 8, 2016 at 1:36 am

    The story is well made and very reflective of those who do self-harm. However tread lightly when it comes to this kind of theme. People can be sensitive about this even if it is just a story. A few grammar errors and try having less commas next time. Also possibly be in more depth about certain details within the story to have more understanding and relation.

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  • Sydney
    Commented on February 6, 2016 at 9:16 pm

    Why shouldn’t this be on this site, even if it does really happen to people? Yes it’s sad and horrific but this is a place for fictional stories. You’re also completely overlooking that more then 50% of the other stories on here include self harm, brutal beating and rape of many different kinds. If this is the kind of thing that would keep you from getting better, which if the writer is depressed I very much hope they do get better, then I highly suggest you should not be reading stories of the nature.

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  • Commented on December 22, 2015 at 3:58 pm

    I agree self harm is addicting and although this story probably doesn’t belong on a creepypasta website I hope that you get better believe me it helps if you tell someone. I promise someone cares

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  • Commented on February 26, 2016 at 8:14 am

    This pasta shows people (mostly teenagers) have certain addictions you know nothing about..
    Well done.

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  • Andrei
    Commented on January 4, 2016 at 10:20 am

    Whether this is belongs here or not is debatable, but honestly I was expecting more. It was so easy to read that by the end I was hoping for some kind of twist, rather than self harm. My mind was going to topics like “maybe that’s some kind of demon in disguise and it actually takes of its skin” or something. If you want to approach the self harm make it a little less predictable, say it in metaphors, like when the person cuts some kind of small demons come out, as a metaphor for releasing the tension or something. It way too predictable and you can see the ending from a mile, so much that you hope for a twist that never comes.

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  • thunder thighs
    Commented on December 31, 2015 at 1:05 am

    This story was well written, 10/10. Also I didn’t see this as a story about a suicidal child, but more as a mentally ill child who is persuaded by the voices in his head to cut his wrists. the reason I believe him to be mentally ill is because last time I checked, it is not normal for people or kids to hear voices in there head (especially the type described in this story).

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  • JANETHEKILLER
    Commented on January 4, 2016 at 5:02 am

    this is sad i have a friend who self harms and its not a joke.

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  • Commented on January 25, 2016 at 4:40 am

    I’m hoping OP didn’t make this as an insight to their life. If so, I hope they get help. I could never really fathom the precise reasoning to self harm. I’ve known several friends who did it and it breaks my heart to see people I care about want to hurt themselves.

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  • Commented on May 23, 2016 at 9:46 pm

    I thought this was good, fuck everybody that doesn’t like it. There are always going to be assholes that take shit personally, it’s annoying. This pasta gives you perspective on this sort of thing and it’s sad that people go through this. The horror of this story is that it’s real and it happens every day. Creepy pasta worthy to me, I mean my god I read one the other day on here about a meth addict but there wasn’t any whiny ass bullshit comments posted on there. Five stars, bitches.

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  • CreepyPastaz
    Commented on December 30, 2015 at 9:45 pm

    Nicely written, but sad to know that there are people out there experiencing this sort of thing.

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  • Commented on March 27, 2016 at 6:19 am

    Most accurate thing I’ve read to be honest

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  • Slendy
    Commented on April 26, 2016 at 3:33 pm

    I completely disagree with the majority of the comments here. It’s CREEPYPASTA website. People get killed, tortured, lit on fire, haunted, and tons of other things. It is not supposed to be taken as a ‘joke’ or ‘funny’. Not a single story here is supposed to be taken jokingly. Yes, people self harm in real life, as well as get killed, and abused. I have self harmed before, almost everyone has. It just isn’t a big deal compared to other things on this website. If you were looking for a joke, or something happy or light hearted, you have come to wrong place. Go read Cupcakes, come back re-read this story, and tell me again how it should not be on this website.

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  • Commented on August 28, 2016 at 2:23 am

    I don’t understand why people are calling this a joke, I went through this for years. Yes, it’s a sad story. But it’s just that, a story. Not a joke. Quit taking everything so personally. Writer, you have a great talent. Keep it up.

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  • Commented on February 29, 2016 at 1:23 am

    I have a feeling the narrator is schizophrenic.

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  • Commented on March 12, 2016 at 8:30 pm

    There is a lot of debate as to this story not belonging on this site. I did not find this entertaining but I did appreciate the insight it provided. “Cutting” is a very real behavior. I appreciated the opportunity to experience it from the point of view of one afflicted . It also seemed like a cry for help.

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  • Commented on March 27, 2016 at 11:02 am

    This pasta definitely should NOT be on this site. The whole purpose of creepypasta is to be creepy or paranormal, of which this is neither. I can see how some people can be torn between wondering at the validity of it being here because of”the voices”, but this is an accurate presentation of someone who may be going through symptoms of selfharming. Its a visual representation of someone’s deepseated issues with body or mental dysmorphia. It 100% should not be here, unfortunately with creepypasta.org’s review guidelines, I can see how it made it. Somehow stories that aren’t creepy or paranormal still make the guideline. Wether or not it should be here is already decided it seems. That being said, the quality is good ie grammar, spelling, punctuation, format, despite the poor content. Therefore I have to say good job at writing this op, but please do a better job on the topic of your next one.

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  • Commented on June 6, 2016 at 6:25 pm

    relatable

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  • Commented on November 14, 2016 at 3:19 am

    This pasta is amazing. It’s one that people can really relate to. I used to self harm and that was a perfect explanation of what it’s like. This site is for scary stories and these things happen, it is scary. I’m sorry to those who didn’t like it. Please keep the comments positive. Have a magically delicious day!

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  • Commented on November 22, 2016 at 4:02 pm

    i like this pasta its a great description of what goes through the mind when you do self harm and i think it would help if someone was addicted to harming them self and it would sort of help them to go in a different direction all together due to the fact that my brother used to cut all the time then i showed him a story like this and he stopped soon after with out any help besides the help he had at home and a computer.

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  • Commented on January 4, 2016 at 10:57 pm

    This story is just sad and depressing, and truly not a creepypasta, but it’s so true for some people, but I*m not sure if it should be at creepypasta.org since it’s a place for creepypastas

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  • Licorice Whip
    Commented on March 13, 2016 at 1:01 am

    FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK! I’M 11 FUCKING YEARS OLD AND I USED TO HARM MYSELF THE SAME WAY BUT WITH MY FINGERNAILS! (this is still a good pasta)

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  • Commented on April 25, 2016 at 12:44 pm

    This is a very sensitive subject. If you like to blay with fire be my guest but this is entirely to controversial subject. Although self mutilation is an entirely stupid thing to do and i hate people who do it. this person has schizophrenia so I don’t know how i feel about this particular case but i absolutely hate the ungrateful ones that do it because they’re depressed. (being alternative myself)

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  • Commented on April 25, 2016 at 1:08 pm

    I am a person who has dealt with depression and other things like this. What people do not understand, is that a lot of it is for attention. People take this too seriously and that people are suicidal, but the truth is, is that people who do that WANT the stares. They want the drama, they want everything thrown at them until they drown. This was a cute petite pasta in my opinion that does not fill the dish for the touchy subject it deals with.

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  • Victoriakoegler
    Commented on May 22, 2016 at 4:25 pm

    This story is legitimately sad and depressing. To the person who wrote this, I applaud you for your good writing skills. Also, I think you are very brave to post a pasta this emotional and serious on the site, because honestly, this stuff does happen in real life. That’s what makes it so scary. Though I don’t necessarily think the story should be taken off of the pasta list, I do hope you continue writing. I really do admire your work, and that’s a fact. 🙂

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  • Commented on February 7, 2017 at 2:27 am

    thats the exact reason its a good creepypasta. because its real and its more then a little creepy to people who have never done it. even if you have then its good because then other people will know what its actually like.

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  • Commented on March 3, 2017 at 8:00 pm

    the writer was trigger happy. they probably wrote this or posted it just to trigger you all.

    still not the place not the time.

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  • Commented on October 5, 2016 at 3:58 pm

    Worst story ever…. My girlfriend does that its no laughing matter

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  • Commented on October 18, 2016 at 4:10 pm

    So, I don’t want to come off as “rude” or “offensive but let’s get this straight. This isn’t a creepypasta. This isn’t even a scary story. This is self-harm. And the narrator is probably suffering from bullying and harassment and therefore is tempted to hurt himself or herself. Self-harm is definitely not a creepypasta…

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  • pooperoni
    Commented on December 29, 2015 at 9:38 am

    Yeah, I’m in the property market. Mainly houses and residences but..I sell farm too

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  • Commented on December 31, 2015 at 1:17 am

    Do not tell us to go whine reddit because this is serious and no its not a cool story its about self harm . Im not joking I am a kid and think this is wrong.

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  • xarwhospissedatthesecomments
    Commented on December 26, 2015 at 11:33 pm

    who cares its a cool storie god shut up and whine on reddit or some shit

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  • Commented on December 21, 2015 at 6:23 pm

    It’s about a suicidal kid

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  • Commented on March 23, 2016 at 3:32 pm

    This should be removed , that’s all I’m saying.

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