I just want to start off by saying if you want an answer at the end, prepare to be disappointed. There just isn’t one.
I was an intern at Nickelodeon Studios for a year in 2005 for my degree in animation. It wasn’t paid of course, most internships aren’t, but it did have some perks beyond education. To adults it might not seem like a big one, but most kids at the time would go crazy over it.
Now, since I worked directly with the editors and animators, I got to view the new episodes days before they aired. I’ll get right to it without giving too many unnecessary details. They had very recently made the SpongeBob movie and the entire staff was somewhat sapped of creativity so it took them longer to start up the season. But the delay lasted longer for more upsetting reasons. There was a problem with the series 4 premiere that set everyone and everything back for several months.
Me and two other interns were in the editing room along with the lead animators and sound editors for the final cut. We received the copy that was supposed to be “Fear of a Krabby Patty” and gathered around the screen to watch. Now, given that it isn’t final yet animators often put up a mock title card, sort of an inside joke for us, with phony, often times lewd titles, such as “How sex doesn’t work” instead of “Rock-a-bye-Bivalve” when SpongeBob and Patrick adopt a sea scallop. Nothing particularly funny but work related chuckles. So when we saw the title card “Squidward’s Suicide” we didn’t think it more than a morbid joke.
One of the interns did a small throat laugh at it. The happy-go-lucky music plays as is normal. The story began with Squidward practicing his clarinet, hitting a few sour notes like normal. We hear SpongeBob laughing outside and Squidward stops, yelling at him to keep it down as he has a concert that night and needs to practice. SpongeBob says okay and goes to see Sandy with Patrick. The bubbles splash screen comes up and we see the ending of Squidward’s concert. This is when things began to seem off.
While playing, a few frames repeat themselves, but the sound doesn’t (at this point sound is synced up with animation, so, yes, that’s not common) but when he stops playing, the sound finishes as if the skip never happened. There is slight murmuring in the crowd before they begin to boo him. Not normal cartoon booing that is common in the show, but you could very clearly hear malice in it. Squidward’s in full frame and looks visibly afraid. The shot goes to the crowd, with SpongeBob in center frame, and he too is booing, very much unlike him. That isn’t the oddest thing, though. What is odd is everyone had hyper realistic eyes. Very detailed. Clearly not shots of real people’s eyes, but something a bit more real than CGI. The pupils were red. Some of us looked at each other, obviously confused, but since we weren’t the writers, we didn’t question its appeal to children yet.
The shot goes to Squidward sitting on the edge of his bed, looking very forlorn. The view out of his porthole window is of a night sky so it isn’t very long after the concert. The unsettling part is at this point there is no sound. Literally no sound. Not even the feedback from the speakers in the room. It’s as if the speakers were turned off, though their status showed them working perfectly. He just sat there, blinking, in this silence for about 30 seconds, then he started to sob softly. He put his hands (tentacles) over his eyes and cried quietly for a full minute more, all the while a sound in the background very slowly growing from nothing to barely audible. It sounded like a slight breeze through a forest.
The screen slowly begins to zoom in on his face. By slow I mean it’s only noticeable if you look at shots 10 seconds apart side by side. His sobbing gets louder, more full of hurt and anger. The screen then twitches a bit, as if it twists in on itself, for a split second then back to normal. The wind-through-the-trees sound gets slowly louder and more severe, as if a storm is brewing somewhere. The eerie part is this sound, and Squidward’s sobbing, sounded real, as if the sound wasn’t coming from the speakers but as if the speakers were holes the sound was coming through from the other side. As good as sound as the studio likes to have, they don’t purchase the equipment to be that good to produce sound of that quality.
Below the sound of the wind and sobbing, very faint, something sounded like laughing. It came at odd intervals and never lasted more than a second so you had a hard time pinning it (we watched this show twice, so pardon me if things sound too specific but I’ve had time to think about them). After 30 seconds of this, the screen blurred and twitched violently and something flashed over the screen, as if a single frame was replaced.
The lead animation editor paused and rewound frame by frame. What we saw was horrible. It was a still photo of a dead child. He couldn’t have been more than 6. The face was mangled and bloodied, one eye dangling over his upturned face, popped. He was naked down to his underwear, his stomach crudely cut open and his entrails laying beside him. He was laying on some pavement that was probably a road.
The most upsetting part was that there was a shadow of the photographer. There was no crime tape, no evidence tags or markers, and the angle was completely off for a shot designed to be evidence. It would seem the photographer was the person responsible for the child’s death. We were of course mortified, but pressed on, hoping that it was just a sick joke.
The screen flipped back to Squidward, still sobbing, louder than before, and half body in frame. There was now what appeard to be blood running down his face from his eyes. The blood was also done in a hyper realistic style, looking as if you touched it you’d get blood on your fingers. The wind sounded now as if it were that of a gale blowing through the forest; there were even snapping sounds of branches. The laughing, a deep baritone, lasting at longer intervals and coming more frequently. After about 20 seconds, the screen again twisted and showed a single frame photo.
The editor was reluctant to go back, we all were, but he knew he had to. This time the photo was that of what appeared to be a little girl, no older than the first child. She was laying on her stomach, her barrettes in a pool of blood next to her. Her left eye was too popped out and popped, naked except for underpants. Her entrails were piled on top of her above another crude cut along her back. Again the body was on the street and the photographer’s shadow was visible, very similar in size and shape to the first. I had to choke back vomit and one intern, the only female in the room, ran out. The show resumed.
About 5 seconds after this second photo played, Squidward went silent, as did all sound, like it was when this scene started. He put his tentacles down and his eyes were now done in hyper realism like the others were in the beginning of this episode. They were bleeding, bloodshot, and pulsating. He just stared at the screen, as if watching the viewer. After about 10 seconds, he started sobbing, this time not covering his eyes. The sound was piercing and loud, and most fear inducing of all is his sobbing was mixed with screams.
Tears and blood were dripping down his face at a heavy rate. The wind sound came back, and so did the deep voiced laughing, and this time the still photo lasted for a good 5 frames.
The animator was able to stop it on the 4th and backed up. This time the photo was of a boy, about the same age, but this time the scene was different. The entrails were just being pulled out from a stomach wound by a large hand, the right eye popped and dangling, blood trickling down it. The animator proceeded. It was hard to believe, but the next one was different but we couldn’t tell what. He went on to the next, same thing. He want back to the first and played them quicker and I lost it. I vomited on the floor, the animating and sound editors gasping at the screen. The 5 frames were not as if they were 5 different photos, they were played out as if they were frames from a video. We saw the hand slowly lift out the guts, we saw the kid’s eyes focus on it, we even saw two frames of the kid beginning to blink.
The lead sound editor told us to stop, he had to call in the creator to see this. Mr. Hillenburg arrived within about 15 minutes. He was confused as to why he was called down there, so the editor just continued the episode. Once the few frames were shown, all screaming, all sound again stopped. Squidward was just staring at the viewer, full frame of the face, for about 3 seconds. The shot quickly panned out and that deep voice said “DO IT” and we see in Squidward’s hands a shotgun. He immediately puts the gun in his mouth and pulls the trigger. Realistic blood and brain matter splatters the wall behind him, and his bed, and he flies back with the force. The last 5 seconds of this episode show his body on the bed, on his side, one eye dangling on what’s left of his head above the floor, staring blankly at it. Then the episode ends.
Mr. Hillenburg is obviously angry at this. He demanded to know what the heck was going on. Most people left the room at this point, so it was just a handful of us to watch it again. Viewing the episode twice only served to imprint the entirety of it in my mind and cause me horrible nightmares. I’m sorry I stayed.
The only theory we could think of was the file was edited by someone in the chain from the drawing studio to here. The CTO was called in to analyze when it happened. The analysis of the file did show it was edited over by new material. However, the timestamp of it was a mere 24 seconds before we began viewing it. All equipment involved was examined for foreign software and hardware as well as glitches, as if the time stamp may have glitched and showed the wrong time, but everything checked out fine. We don’t know what happened and to this day nobody does.
There was an investigation due to the nature of the photos, but nothing came of it. No child seen was identified and no clues were gathered from the data involved nor physical clues in the photos. I never believed in unexplainable phenomena before, but now that I have something happen and can’t prove anything about it beyond anecdotal evidence, I think twice about things.
67 Comments on 'Squidward’s Suicide'
Btw, the video was posted on youtube but got taken down because of the horrible pictures in it.
Woah. This is the reason I joined Creepypasta. It isn’t just the pale creature outside the window, it seems realistic, with enough mystery shrouded around it, that it fades the line between reality, and the impossible. It sent chills up my spine when I finished, and did what only the very best pastas do: Make you google it to find the real info or video. Delicious Pasta.
Oldy but a goody.
THIS IS A CREEEEEPY PASTA ALRIGHT!!!!!
Classic one of my all time favorites
i herd of this pasta and its really horrifying anyways really good pasta
My uncle works for Nickolodeon CTU
This is a delicious pasta and defiantly gives a good chill up your spine. 5/5!
Wow, this brings back some old times. Tasty pasta!
this was an old one. it made me a little bit sick and thats good creepy pasta right there
i didnt really like it
Fantastic Pasta. Amazing story and frightening images that you picture in your mind as you read. 10/10
wow good story but thanks you ruined my child hood i even tryed and search for it wtf
I love this creepypasta! Its creepy and sad. Ruined my childhood though. I sound sick, but i wanna watch the episode, out of curiosity.
This acually happened.
This i a great creepypasta.
Omg I loved this story the first time I read it! It’s creepy, mysterious, and all-out strange!
the title attracted me to the story
This is better than some of the others that I have read so its worth reading I guess.
How this story gets so much praise and a such a fanbase, is beyond me.
I am without a doubt sure that I am going to get some down votes for saying this but, the entire Lost Episode sub genre is full of stories like this, and just like this one… They are lacking the ability to cause fear. It tries SO hard to shock and disgust, it decides not to do anything else. I personally believe this is one of the most overrated pastas ever written.
One of my favorites 10/10
OMG I think I have just found my new favorite creepypasta! This had me hooked from the first word! Amazing!
Makes you wonder weather this actually happened, a classic.
The video is still up on YouTube….also under red mist
One of my all time favorites 9.5/10
I wanna see the episode out of sick curiousity though XD
I really like it don’t get me wrong but it just doesn’t seem realistic. I mean this would have turned into a real investigation but… Whatever. Who am I to ruin your fun.
wow very good story btw spongebob would be boring without him weirdley
DUDE this is like the mother of all cartoon horror.
DUDE this is like the mother of all cartoon horror. I curious to see if anyone made the video of it.
DUDE this is like the mother of all cartoon horror. I curious to see if anyone made the video of it. iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
omg to to to sad i am literally crying now T_T WWAAAAA!!!!!! spongbob always annoyed squidward one time sqwidward actually had a psychotic break down (the one i’m thinking of is the episode sqwidwards visit) and in one episode he moved away but this totally ruined my child hood i would have already left the room after the creepy eyes in the crowd if i stayed longer i would without a doubt been sick and watched 6 hours of my little pony to try to burn the images out of my head well i need to go now to watch my little pony i have a over active imagination and need to watch my little pony to burn the mental images out i’m having nightmares tonight no sleeping for me for a week
I don’t really get why this is so popular… It may have been one of the earlier pastas written, but it’s just unrealistic and overly violent. No interns would be allowed to watch the episodes before airing. That’s not what interns do. Secondly, it depicts gutted children for the sheer purpose of shocking the viewer. That is disgusting, and not in the way the author intended it to be.
yes!!!!!! this is what I love to read. did great
I should have listened to the first sentence! Now i’m left in suspense!
thanks for haunting my nightmares this is a good creepypasta spoiler alert this is fake sorry if you disagree
I love, I love, I love it! me and my brother tried to find it once I was 6 he was 9! I didn’ find it though I wish I did!!!!!!!!! 🙁
Childhood, I’ll miss you. :,(
About made me barf because I could imagine the pictures
Definitely one of the classics. Pretty great, amazing detail. I almost want to view this video, even if it doesn’t exist.
Dude this is the most bad ass creepypasta.
I will never see Squidward the same ever again 🙁
The idea of a children’s cartoon being tampered with can be interesting, but the description and the events that occur themselves were just obnoxiously egregious. The amount of supposedly horrifying elements, such as blood, children, “hyper realism”, etc. was almost, well, comical. This sort of story would have worked much better in a visual medium, as the plot itself doesn’t really offer much opportunity to show rather than to tell.
This is definetly my fav pasta, Plus its a classic!
awesome, horrifying, and great
; ( sponge bob will nver be the same
spongbob will never be the same : (
I must be a softy- I cried while reading this. Although a little creepy music in the background would’ve made this creepypasta terrifying.
You weirdos this never actually happened
This is on my favourite Creepypastas list – right up there with Bonus Room, Candle Cove and Abandoned By Disney. It’s one of those that piques your interest enough to wonder if there is some truth to it.
Great for staying up for a ton of homework. Very salty indeed. Very, very salty.
this is my favorite creepypasta of all time
Problably the most iconic creepypasta ever, behind 1999…
SCARIEST CREEPYPASTA EVER!! RIGHT BEHIND 1999
on a scale of 1-100 i give it a 100,000,000,000,000,000,000
on a scale of 1-100 I give it a 100,000,000,000,000,000,000,000
If I was there, I would’ve gave Squidward a hug.2
I like it, but it almost scary and it doesn’t scare me.
And there’s the gunshot of squidward.bang!just rode the creepy pasta hook down didn’t I?so good bye sleep
this pasta was one of the very first i read and i just made my account even though i have been a long time pasa reader, this pasta is so good it scared me for the longest time, its unique it is creepy and it makes you think it makes you sad thought witch is also good it plays with your emotions making you feel more attached to the story
fuck! it ruined my childhood, but this is so good!
I remember when I first read this one… A few days after I read it, the episode it was supposed to be came on. I NEVER nope out of watching Spongebob…. But this time I did. To this day, every time that episode comes on, I think of this Creepypasta. It’s easily one of my favorites though.
Why the Fuck is this garbage still here?
if you think I’m wrong and you want to know why I think this story is bad get someone with more than and IQ of 70 to read it and you should know
OH MY GOODNESS! I BARFED WHEN IT SAID HE BARFED! SO I JUST DID IT! WHAT IS THIS?! ON A SCALE OF SCARINESS 1-10, I RATE THIS A 1000000!!!!!!!! HOLY CRAP!
Now this is some SCRUMPTIOUS linguine, my friend.