Squidward’s Suicide


I just want to start off by saying if you want an answer at the end, prepare to be disappointed. There just isn’t one.

I was an intern at Nickelodeon Studios for a year in 2005 for my degree in animation. It wasn’t paid of course, most internships aren’t, but it did have some perks beyond education. To adults it might not seem like a big one, but most kids at the time would go crazy over it.

Now, since I worked directly with the editors and animators, I got to view the new episodes days before they aired. I’ll get right to it without giving too many unnecessary details. They had very recently made the SpongeBob movie and the entire staff was somewhat sapped of creativity so it took them longer to start up the season. But the delay lasted longer for more upsetting reasons. There was a problem with the series 4 premiere that set everyone and everything back for several months.

Me and two other interns were in the editing room along with the lead animators and sound editors for the final cut. We received the copy that was supposed to be “Fear of a Krabby Patty” and gathered around the screen to watch. Now, given that it isn’t final yet animators often put up a mock title card, sort of an inside joke for us, with phony, often times lewd titles, such as “How sex doesn’t work” instead of “Rock-a-bye-Bivalve” when SpongeBob and Patrick adopt a sea scallop. Nothing particularly funny but work related chuckles. So when we saw the title card “Squidward’s Suicide” we didn’t think it more than a morbid joke.

One of the interns did a small throat laugh at it. The happy-go-lucky music plays as is normal. The story began with Squidward practicing his clarinet, hitting a few sour notes like normal. We hear SpongeBob laughing outside and Squidward stops, yelling at him to keep it down as he has a concert that night and needs to practice. SpongeBob says okay and goes to see Sandy with Patrick. The bubbles splash screen comes up and we see the ending of Squidward’s concert. This is when things began to seem off.

While playing, a few frames repeat themselves, but the sound doesn’t (at this point sound is synced up with animation, so, yes, that’s not common) but when he stops playing, the sound finishes as if the skip never happened. There is slight murmuring in the crowd before they begin to boo him. Not normal cartoon booing that is common in the show, but you could very clearly hear malice in it. Squidward’s in full frame and looks visibly afraid. The shot goes to the crowd, with SpongeBob in center frame, and he too is booing, very much unlike him. That isn’t the oddest thing, though. What is odd is everyone had hyper realistic eyes. Very detailed. Clearly not shots of real people’s eyes, but something a bit more real than CGI. The pupils were red. Some of us looked at each other, obviously confused, but since we weren’t the writers, we didn’t question its appeal to children yet.

The shot goes to Squidward sitting on the edge of his bed, looking very forlorn. The view out of his porthole window is of a night sky so it isn’t very long after the concert. The unsettling part is at this point there is no sound. Literally no sound. Not even the feedback from the speakers in the room. It’s as if the speakers were turned off, though their status showed them working perfectly. He just sat there, blinking, in this silence for about 30 seconds, then he started to sob softly. He put his hands (tentacles) over his eyes and cried quietly for a full minute more, all the while a sound in the background very slowly growing from nothing to barely audible. It sounded like a slight breeze through a forest.

The screen slowly begins to zoom in on his face. By slow I mean it’s only noticeable if you look at shots 10 seconds apart side by side. His sobbing gets louder, more full of hurt and anger. The screen then twitches a bit, as if it twists in on itself, for a split second then back to normal. The wind-through-the-trees sound gets slowly louder and more severe, as if a storm is brewing somewhere. The eerie part is this sound, and Squidward’s sobbing, sounded real, as if the sound wasn’t coming from the speakers but as if the speakers were holes the sound was coming through from the other side. As good as sound as the studio likes to have, they don’t purchase the equipment to be that good to produce sound of that quality.

Below the sound of the wind and sobbing, very faint, something sounded like laughing. It came at odd intervals and never lasted more than a second so you had a hard time pinning it (we watched this show twice, so pardon me if things sound too specific but I’ve had time to think about them). After 30 seconds of this, the screen blurred and twitched violently and something flashed over the screen, as if a single frame was replaced.

The lead animation editor paused and rewound frame by frame. What we saw was horrible. It was a still photo of a dead child. He couldn’t have been more than 6. The face was mangled and bloodied, one eye dangling over his upturned face, popped. He was naked down to his underwear, his stomach crudely cut open and his entrails laying beside him. He was laying on some pavement that was probably a road.

The most upsetting part was that there was a shadow of the photographer. There was no crime tape, no evidence tags or markers, and the angle was completely off for a shot designed to be evidence. It would seem the photographer was the person responsible for the child’s death. We were of course mortified, but pressed on, hoping that it was just a sick joke.

The screen flipped back to Squidward, still sobbing, louder than before, and half body in frame. There was now what appeard to be blood running down his face from his eyes. The blood was also done in a hyper realistic style, looking as if you touched it you’d get blood on your fingers. The wind sounded now as if it were that of a gale blowing through the forest; there were even snapping sounds of branches. The laughing, a deep baritone, lasting at longer intervals and coming more frequently. After about 20 seconds, the screen again twisted and showed a single frame photo.

The editor was reluctant to go back, we all were, but he knew he had to. This time the photo was that of what appeared to be a little girl, no older than the first child. She was laying on her stomach, her barrettes in a pool of blood next to her. Her left eye was too popped out and popped, naked except for underpants. Her entrails were piled on top of her above another crude cut along her back. Again the body was on the street and the photographer’s shadow was visible, very similar in size and shape to the first. I had to choke back vomit and one intern, the only female in the room, ran out. The show resumed.

About 5 seconds after this second photo played, Squidward went silent, as did all sound, like it was when this scene started. He put his tentacles down and his eyes were now done in hyper realism like the others were in the beginning of this episode. They were bleeding, bloodshot, and pulsating. He just stared at the screen, as if watching the viewer. After about 10 seconds, he started sobbing, this time not covering his eyes. The sound was piercing and loud, and most fear inducing of all is his sobbing was mixed with screams.

Tears and blood were dripping down his face at a heavy rate. The wind sound came back, and so did the deep voiced laughing, and this time the still photo lasted for a good 5 frames.

The animator was able to stop it on the 4th and backed up. This time the photo was of a boy, about the same age, but this time the scene was different. The entrails were just being pulled out from a stomach wound by a large hand, the right eye popped and dangling, blood trickling down it. The animator proceeded. It was hard to believe, but the next one was different but we couldn’t tell what. He went on to the next, same thing. He want back to the first and played them quicker and I lost it. I vomited on the floor, the animating and sound editors gasping at the screen. The 5 frames were not as if they were 5 different photos, they were played out as if they were frames from a video. We saw the hand slowly lift out the guts, we saw the kid’s eyes focus on it, we even saw two frames of the kid beginning to blink.

The lead sound editor told us to stop, he had to call in the creator to see this. Mr. Hillenburg arrived within about 15 minutes. He was confused as to why he was called down there, so the editor just continued the episode. Once the few frames were shown, all screaming, all sound again stopped. Squidward was just staring at the viewer, full frame of the face, for about 3 seconds. The shot quickly panned out and that deep voice said “DO IT” and we see in Squidward’s hands a shotgun. He immediately puts the gun in his mouth and pulls the trigger. Realistic blood and brain matter splatters the wall behind him, and his bed, and he flies back with the force. The last 5 seconds of this episode show his body on the bed, on his side, one eye dangling on what’s left of his head above the floor, staring blankly at it. Then the episode ends.

Mr. Hillenburg is obviously angry at this. He demanded to know what the heck was going on. Most people left the room at this point, so it was just a handful of us to watch it again. Viewing the episode twice only served to imprint the entirety of it in my mind and cause me horrible nightmares. I’m sorry I stayed.

The only theory we could think of was the file was edited by someone in the chain from the drawing studio to here. The CTO was called in to analyze when it happened. The analysis of the file did show it was edited over by new material. However, the timestamp of it was a mere 24 seconds before we began viewing it. All equipment involved was examined for foreign software and hardware as well as glitches, as if the time stamp may have glitched and showed the wrong time, but everything checked out fine. We don’t know what happened and to this day nobody does.

There was an investigation due to the nature of the photos, but nothing came of it. No child seen was identified and no clues were gathered from the data involved nor physical clues in the photos. I never believed in unexplainable phenomena before, but now that I have something happen and can’t prove anything about it beyond anecdotal evidence, I think twice about things.

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  • Commented on July 18, 2013 at 6:26 pm

    Btw, the video was posted on youtube but got taken down because of the horrible pictures in it.

  • Commented on July 19, 2013 at 4:14 am

    Woah. This is the reason I joined Creepypasta. It isn’t just the pale creature outside the window, it seems realistic, with enough mystery shrouded around it, that it fades the line between reality, and the impossible. It sent chills up my spine when I finished, and did what only the very best pastas do: Make you google it to find the real info or video. Delicious Pasta.

  • D
    Commented on July 25, 2013 at 9:47 am

    Oldy but a goody.

  • Commented on September 12, 2013 at 7:29 pm


  • Commented on October 16, 2013 at 6:27 pm

    Classic one of my all time favorites

  • Commented on November 19, 2013 at 12:40 pm

    i herd of this pasta and its really horrifying anyways really good pasta

  • Commented on March 3, 2014 at 4:41 am

    My uncle works for Nickolodeon CTU

  • Commented on March 20, 2014 at 10:44 pm

    This is a delicious pasta and defiantly gives a good chill up your spine. 5/5!

  • Commented on April 15, 2014 at 2:04 pm

    Wow, this brings back some old times. Tasty pasta!

  • Commented on June 3, 2014 at 4:42 pm

    this was an old one. it made me a little bit sick and thats good creepy pasta right there

  • Commented on June 30, 2014 at 8:05 am

    i didnt really like it

  • Commented on July 14, 2014 at 6:53 pm

    Fantastic Pasta. Amazing story and frightening images that you picture in your mind as you read. 10/10

  • Commented on August 29, 2014 at 10:35 am

    wow good story but thanks you ruined my child hood i even tryed and search for it wtf

  • Commented on August 31, 2014 at 10:27 am

    I love this creepypasta! Its creepy and sad. Ruined my childhood though. I sound sick, but i wanna watch the episode, out of curiosity.

  • Commented on January 22, 2015 at 11:02 pm

    This acually happened.

  • Commented on January 22, 2015 at 11:03 pm

    This i a great creepypasta.

  • Commented on February 24, 2015 at 3:54 pm

    Omg I loved this story the first time I read it! It’s creepy, mysterious, and all-out strange!

  • Commented on April 8, 2015 at 4:00 pm

    the title attracted me to the story

  • Commented on April 14, 2015 at 5:52 pm

    This is better than some of the others that I have read so its worth reading I guess.

  • Commented on April 21, 2015 at 12:28 pm

    Oh no…
    How this story gets so much praise and a such a fanbase, is beyond me.
    I am without a doubt sure that I am going to get some down votes for saying this but, the entire Lost Episode sub genre is full of stories like this, and just like this one… They are lacking the ability to cause fear. It tries SO hard to shock and disgust, it decides not to do anything else. I personally believe this is one of the most overrated pastas ever written.


  • Commented on April 30, 2015 at 7:50 pm

    One of my favorites 10/10

  • Commented on May 6, 2015 at 5:59 pm

    OMG I think I have just found my new favorite creepypasta! This had me hooked from the first word! Amazing!

  • Commented on May 10, 2015 at 7:53 pm

    Makes you wonder weather this actually happened, a classic.

  • Commented on May 11, 2015 at 9:47 pm

    The video is still up on YouTube….also under red mist

  • Commented on June 25, 2015 at 10:49 pm

    One of my all time favorites 9.5/10
    I wanna see the episode out of sick curiousity though XD

  • Commented on July 13, 2015 at 8:36 pm

    I really like it don’t get me wrong but it just doesn’t seem realistic. I mean this would have turned into a real investigation but… Whatever. Who am I to ruin your fun.

  • Commented on July 27, 2015 at 12:54 pm

    wow very good story btw spongebob would be boring without him weirdley

  • eyeless jackass
    Commented on September 30, 2015 at 4:50 pm

    DUDE this is like the mother of all cartoon horror.

  • eyeless jackass
    Commented on September 30, 2015 at 4:51 pm

    DUDE this is like the mother of all cartoon horror. I curious to see if anyone made the video of it.

  • eyeless jackass
    Commented on September 30, 2015 at 5:17 pm

    DUDE this is like the mother of all cartoon horror. I curious to see if anyone made the video of it. iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

  • rory
    Commented on September 30, 2015 at 11:28 pm

    omg to to to sad i am literally crying now T_T WWAAAAA!!!!!! spongbob always annoyed squidward one time sqwidward actually had a psychotic break down (the one i’m thinking of is the episode sqwidwards visit) and in one episode he moved away but this totally ruined my child hood i would have already left the room after the creepy eyes in the crowd if i stayed longer i would without a doubt been sick and watched 6 hours of my little pony to try to burn the images out of my head well i need to go now to watch my little pony i have a over active imagination and need to watch my little pony to burn the mental images out i’m having nightmares tonight no sleeping for me for a week

  • Commented on October 2, 2015 at 9:03 am

    very good….

  • Commented on October 9, 2015 at 11:35 pm

    I don’t really get why this is so popular… It may have been one of the earlier pastas written, but it’s just unrealistic and overly violent. No interns would be allowed to watch the episodes before airing. That’s not what interns do. Secondly, it depicts gutted children for the sheer purpose of shocking the viewer. That is disgusting, and not in the way the author intended it to be.

  • Commented on October 13, 2015 at 4:08 am

    yes!!!!!! this is what I love to read. did great

  • Commented on October 18, 2015 at 9:26 pm

    I should have listened to the first sentence! Now i’m left in suspense!

  • Khadijah
    Commented on October 28, 2015 at 5:39 pm

    thanks for haunting my nightmares this is a good creepypasta spoiler alert this is fake sorry if you disagree

  • Springbabe
    Commented on November 16, 2015 at 8:33 pm

    I love, I love, I love it! me and my brother tried to find it once I was 6 he was 9! I didn’ find it though I wish I did!!!!!!!!! 🙁

  • Commented on November 18, 2015 at 6:09 pm

    Childhood, I’ll miss you. :,(

  • Chauncey
    Commented on November 19, 2015 at 10:49 pm

    About made me barf because I could imagine the pictures

  • Commented on December 21, 2015 at 5:04 pm

    Definitely one of the classics. Pretty great, amazing detail. I almost want to view this video, even if it doesn’t exist.

  • Commented on February 9, 2016 at 12:25 am

    Dude this is the most bad ass creepypasta.

  • Commented on April 26, 2016 at 4:57 am

    I will never see Squidward the same ever again 🙁

  • Mary
    Commented on April 29, 2016 at 3:36 pm

    The idea of a children’s cartoon being tampered with can be interesting, but the description and the events that occur themselves were just obnoxiously egregious. The amount of supposedly horrifying elements, such as blood, children, “hyper realism”, etc. was almost, well, comical. This sort of story would have worked much better in a visual medium, as the plot itself doesn’t really offer much opportunity to show rather than to tell.

  • Commented on June 1, 2016 at 1:15 am

    This is definetly my fav pasta, Plus its a classic!

  • Commented on August 27, 2016 at 11:04 pm

    awesome, horrifying, and great

  • bwabwa;)
    Commented on September 18, 2016 at 11:23 am

    ; ( sponge bob will nver be the same

  • Commented on October 1, 2016 at 8:58 am

    spongbob will never be the same : (

  • Commented on January 8, 2017 at 2:39 am

    I must be a softy- I cried while reading this. Although a little creepy music in the background would’ve made this creepypasta terrifying.

  • Commented on January 8, 2017 at 8:59 pm

    You weirdos this never actually happened

  • Commented on January 17, 2017 at 9:54 pm

    This is on my favourite Creepypastas list – right up there with Bonus Room, Candle Cove and Abandoned By Disney. It’s one of those that piques your interest enough to wonder if there is some truth to it.

  • Commented on January 18, 2017 at 7:16 am

    Great for staying up for a ton of homework. Very salty indeed. Very, very salty.

  • matthewfinnell
    Commented on March 22, 2017 at 9:07 pm

    this is my favorite creepypasta of all time

  • Commented on April 15, 2017 at 9:50 am

    Problably the most iconic creepypasta ever, behind 1999…

  • Commented on April 15, 2017 at 9:51 am


  • Commented on April 16, 2017 at 3:31 am

    Goodbye childhood

  • MemeGodessGaming
    Commented on May 7, 2017 at 1:27 pm

    on a scale of 1-100 i give it a 100,000,000,000,000,000,000

  • MemeGodessGaming
    Commented on May 7, 2017 at 1:32 pm

    on a scale of 1-100 I give it a 100,000,000,000,000,000,000,000

  • Nechku
    Commented on May 11, 2017 at 2:16 am

    If I was there, I would’ve gave Squidward a hug.2

  • Commented on May 14, 2017 at 10:39 pm

    I like it, but it almost scary and it doesn’t scare me.

  • Danielle exe file
    Commented on June 26, 2017 at 7:18 am

    And there’s the gunshot of squidward.bang!just rode the creepy pasta hook down didn’t I?so good bye sleep

  • Commented on August 6, 2017 at 7:11 pm

    creepy! 10/10

  • Commented on October 21, 2017 at 6:10 am

    this pasta was one of the very first i read and i just made my account even though i have been a long time pasa reader, this pasta is so good it scared me for the longest time, its unique it is creepy and it makes you think it makes you sad thought witch is also good it plays with your emotions making you feel more attached to the story

  • Commented on November 18, 2017 at 6:26 am

    fuck! it ruined my childhood, but this is so good!

  • Commented on December 21, 2017 at 12:09 am

    I remember when I first read this one… A few days after I read it, the episode it was supposed to be came on. I NEVER nope out of watching Spongebob…. But this time I did. To this day, every time that episode comes on, I think of this Creepypasta. It’s easily one of my favorites though.

  • Commented on January 21, 2018 at 12:42 pm

    Why the Fuck is this garbage still here?
    if you think I’m wrong and you want to know why I think this story is bad get someone with more than and IQ of 70 to read it and you should know

  • Hayli Anderson
    Commented on March 12, 2018 at 4:26 pm


  • Commented on March 20, 2018 at 9:32 am

    Now this is some SCRUMPTIOUS linguine, my friend.

  • whitetigerbearmutant4567
    Commented on March 19, 2019 at 7:01 pm

    wow that is really creepy especially the two dead kids.It kinda spoiled and ruined 1 out of 100 percent of my childhood but i really want to watch this episode!

  • Derpy derps
    Commented on April 12, 2019 at 4:22 pm

    HOLY SHIT THISA SCARY! my mom said “if you watch scary shit hun, it will happen too you Boo” i was like “OMG OMG OMG!!” So Ya, I was so fucking freaked out! TnT 😮

  • brennan anrold
    Commented on October 15, 2019 at 5:07 am

    joker becomes the joker in the movie joker

  • Wang Long
    Commented on March 4, 2020 at 1:44 am

    This make me poo poo in my dipey so stionky funny squid go bang bang uh oh stinky uh oh stunky

  • SmileDoge
    Commented on March 5, 2020 at 2:52 am

    Wow. This creepypasta is amazing! 9.5/10. I might be crazy, but I MUST SEE THE SICK VIDEO!

  • HEEHE3
    Commented on June 4, 2023 at 3:23 pm

    mmmm some of that good pasta. This is obviously fake but still- also, maybe those images cpuld have been painted or photoshopped. anyway, I actually saw like, 2 or 3 versions of the Red Mist. one kf them had a weird monster thingy and Squidward was tryna get away from it? The others are also different but still the same subject. The third one wasn’t of his suicide. It was a random eyed monster getting him but with the same image. Or maybe Im wrong, the graphics are odd because its supposed to be traditional. Good creepypasta, though. Definitly one of my favs ^^ JUST PLEASE, WHY MAKE IT SO EXCESSIVLY VIOLENT DEAR LORD HOW IS THE DEAD KIDS RELATED??? HOW IS THE KID STILL LOOKING AND BLINKING??? SRSLY, ITS NOT SCARY IF YOUR DESPERATE ENOUGH TO SHOW THIS- Anyway, it does leave some suspense, but I think this is a random fanmade film. Ppl can hack fanmade episodes just to troll. Or maybe this story is just fake. Maybe it was just a joke and those images are fake. As long as it’s not on the ACTUAL show, kids should be fine. But what happened? Squidward off the rails? Found da secret shotgun?

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